When my girlfriend Jessica told me she was pregnant, I cried. I already had two children that I only saw some of the time, and I was trying to be a good parent. I was paying child support and it wasn’t easy. I really wanted to do an adoption plan and my girlfriend sometimes did and sometimes didn’t. She contacted Friends in Adoption and to be honest with you, I just wanted to know where I could sign once the baby was born. I know she wanted me to agree to raise the baby with her, but I just couldn’t.
She took her time deciding about the adoption and even spent an extra day in the hospital. I think she was hoping that I would change my mind, but I didn’t. I chose not to see my son and I also chose not to have any post-adoption contact with him. I wanted the adoptive parents to feel like his parents without me hanging around. I know Jessica will get to see the baby once a year and will get letters and pictures. If that makes her happy, then that is fine with me. My son is now a year old and I do think about him. I love him, but I knew what I had to do.